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New Livejournal...
Thought it was abotu time...lol
Added the usual people...
if i forgot you or you want to be added in just go there and ask....
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) _silent_stars_
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[30 Nov 2005|04:11pm] |
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Tell me...
1. One secret.
2. One compliment.
3. One random thing.
4. One love note.
5. Lyrics to a song.
6. How old you are.
7. How long we've been friends.
8. A hint to whom you are.
Post anonymously.
Ill Never have to know.
So say what ever you want to.
Mean or nice.
Just hit me with it.
And then I will try and guess who you are.
*I'll never be able to guess because im bad at these things plus no one probably reads this anymore*
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[24 Nov 2005|12:54pm] |
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Happy thanksgiving everyone. And get fat with turkey.
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[20 Oct 2005|12:58am] |
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i love life....
i love my friends...
im just happy :)
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[17 Oct 2005|03:48pm] |
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You know I would always figure that if someone wanted to know something about me or about my life or what going on in it, they would have enough balls to come and ask me about it. Instead of asking other people abotu whats going on in MY life.
But for that reason my livejournal is going to be friends only. Which means you better be on my friends list if you want to read this shit. All of you already on it. Your fine....for now...
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| Happy Birthday to me..... |
[07 Oct 2005|12:15am] |
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its 12:15 am...
I am officially 18 years of age....
woooo....
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[05 Oct 2005|11:56pm] |
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AHHHHHHHHHHHHH
My birthday is Friday...
I'll be 18...
I'm excited...
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| so far this school year |
[07 Sep 2005|10:41pm] |
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Well started my first two days of class. Wasn't too eventful. My classes aren't that bad. Got alot of my friends in my classes, so im pretty happy about that. But I am getting to know right now that I am not going to be getting much sleep this year with all the homework and projects im going to have to do plus working and making time for myself and friends is going to be stressful and time filling. But I guess I am ready.
Dillon has been gone for about 6 days now, and well I miss him terribly. I think this is the second relationship I have taken seriously. I mean the way I feel for him has kept me true and well I like it. I know some people think that I like to move myself around if you know what I mean. And yes I do, doesn't make me a bad person I'm just like that. But I have no reason to with him. I have all I want. And I miss it.
Got my senoir pictures done on tuesday. Was really fun. I can't wait to go look at them. I get to get out of school early on Friday to go see them. Can't wait. Then Stephy comes home for the weekend so then i can go show them to her and let her have her picks...lol. I miss that girl too.
Acctually to be bringing up missing friends....I missed everyone from school. Trixie and Charles and Derek the most. But I mean not seeing them and not taking the time to go see them over the summer was a bad move. And im sorry you guys for that.
Anyways. off to bed to get sleep for another day of high school.....blah.
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[31 Aug 2005|11:39pm] |
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This weekend is going to rock hard core...
well kinda...lol...
All I know is that I am wicked excited....
Weekend at college with my Stephy....
YAY.....lol
kick ass.
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[25 Aug 2005|01:11am] |
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I finally don't care anymore. People can do or say what they want at work. But I am there to do my job no matter how much shit I hear from other people. I don't care how rediculous it gets. Thats the job. And well honestly if you can't stomach it and stick it out. Your a fucking pussy. I congratulate Ro and Jess for sticking it out, they really are amazing people...really I look up to how they handle things....hopefully I can do as well as them in the future. Yes there is bullshit everywhere, but thats life and that the job. I think we get paid for both at BK. But moving on from that. The whole issue with steph leaving is starting to hit harder eveyday. I mean soon she isn't going to be right there. Shes gonna be OVER there. Can't really go over to her house anymore to see her when my parents are being dicks. No more saying "wanna go some where?"..."where?"..."IDK?"..."OK!!!".....I mean its like I'm losing my best friend even though she will be back every weekend kinda. And I'm gonna spend a weekend with her before school starts for me. Its still hitting the soft spot. Also with the fact that she is getting down. Shes is having blah moments about Kyle and herself. And I hate seeing that in her cuz I know how happy kyle makes her...or maybe made her. I do know that she does love him. Which I think she is lucky for. Me and Dillon are finally getting things to work out. I mean our relationship is getting better... real better and its making me happy. When school starts its really going to be bad. Our scheduals are going to be conflicting all the time. but i think we can get thru it. 1 month and 1 week till i turn 18... i can't freaking wait. I need to find an apartment and roomates. I need an apartment in Carthage. I wish I could get and apartment with thte guys but they don't have a car to get back and forth to work. so its hard. plus the whole living with higher ranking ppl....alot of bs to me. but i guess i just have to look into it. I mean they are leaving in like feb/march. so the apartment would be all mine and steph when she came on weekends. but anyway no more rambling since i see this entry is all in one big blob....oh well work and "tl" tomorrow again i guess.....kinda enjoy it kinda don't. oh well....good night,...
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[21 Aug 2005|03:59pm] |
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Yeah I feel so lost and confused. I'm tired all the time. I'm hardly eating. I have no appetite. BK is becoming more of something I don't want in my life no matter how much they pay me. I'm always stressed out, at work and at home. When I'm out doing something I feel so ...out of place like I don't belong. I want a life. I don't care about anything else. I just want a life.
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[09 Aug 2005|01:36am] |
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I don't really know where to start this entry. I guess i can start it by what I am thinking. I have had my ups and downs these past few weeks. One minute I'm happy the next I am sad so and depressed. I can't let things go. And for some reason I can move on with things. I have a hard time trying to tell some people how I feel.My mind is always running in circles. So are my feelings. I mean I wish everyone to be happy. Yes, I know everyone says that, but I know alot of people who really do deserve to be happy. I shouldn't hold grudges against anyone. Well mainly because the reason I am mad at them is because they can be happy when I can't. I am like that with not just one person but a few others too. JJealousy is also there. Jealousy of happiness. Jealousy of, well, being loved by someone you really truely care about. I mean am I stupid to try and make things work with this guy. I mean are relationship is very confusing, but there are times when it just feels so right. And there are times when it feels like its a waste of time and my energy. I mean I'm putting all I have into this. And I'm getting very very small results. Maybe I am trying to fast to make things work. But thats who I am. Maybe it is too soon to wonder when things will take to the next step. Maybe I'll never get there. But I'll be ready when it does come. But no matter all the shit Me or him put each other through, I can say I do care about him a whole lot, and maybe even do love him. But love has been out of my vocabulary for sometime now. No matter how much I hate not having that auora around me. I mean my parents, all three of them, don't really help anything. All I seem to be getting out of them is guilt, anger, bribery, mistrust, and rejection. I mean what more do you people want from me. The times that I needed to be a part of the "family" I was ignored and neglected. So when I finally accept that feeling, they want me to "join in" and be apart of the family. Thats kind of bullshit to me. I mean I know my home life isn't so terrible compared to others, but I feel that I don't belong here. I am not apart of this family. Lately my family has been my friends and there families, mainly Steph's family. She has been a great friend this past year and a half that we have known each other and I am very thankful that we have become such good friends. We have gone through alot of shit. Don't know what I could've done with out you Stephy. I know I don't show it or say it to many people now, but I love all my friends, close and distant. Without them I don't know what I would do. Geez I dweel on stuff alot. And if you are reading this you must have gotten very bored. lol. Well off to bed now. Well more like of to thinking and working things through bymyself, as usual. Oh and I'm sorry to all my friends that I haven't hung out with or made time to hang out with this summer. I should've been a better friend than I am. Forgive me please.
Goodnight.
Sara.
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[08 Aug 2005|06:41pm] |
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yea...
not much to say...
eh so i guess i won't write till i do...
i wish *you* would tell me how you feel sometime...
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| yea <3<3<3 |
[05 Aug 2005|01:39am] |
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being on house arrest isn't as bas as i thought it would be. got to hang out withh ppl alittle bit this week. Things between me and dillon are getting much much much better and im liking it. but some of my friends are getting down. One in pertivcular. I hope he feels better. I am worried about him alot. I wish he wouldn't be so sad and feeling so alone because he's not. He's never been alone i just wish he could see it. Work hasn't been to bad either. Just alot of " BK bullshit" as usual. lol. But yea tomorrow i get to watch the girls....alone...while my parents go to a concert...hopefully i don't kill one. But anyways....tired as hell.
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[01 Aug 2005|11:57am] |
NEW CELL NUMBER
286-9517
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[01 Aug 2005|11:47am] |
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On fucking house arrest. So pissed...I miss dillon...the old dillon...and steph know what im talking about...
so pissed....
about everything...
goddammit...
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[31 Jul 2005|12:27am] |
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Today wasn't that bad. Altho the morning started out horrible. But then the beach with Steph Kyle and Dillon wasn't all too bad... I guess things are ok, but not the way iwant it to be... well have to go to bed gotta work at 8:30 in the morning...
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